London, July 6 (IANS) Singer-actress Jennifer Lopez has for the first time spoken out about her failed romances with Ojani Nao, Sean Combs, Cris Judd and Ben Affleck and how these affected her.

Lopez's first marriage was to Cuban-born Ojani Noa (in 1997) which lasted for less than a year before the union fell apart at the start of her career and the couple divorced in 1998.

Lopez next had a two-and-a-half-year relationship with hip-hop mogul Sean Combs, but admits their relationship "did get sordid" after she was pulled into his infamous trial on a charge of felony gun possession. Combs was later acquitted.

Lopez then married back-up dancer Cris Judd, but the romance was doomed and the couple divorced in 2003.

The 40-year-old claims romance with actor-director Ben Affleck was really life-changing and admits being dumped by the actor just days before their wedding in 2004. This left her completely heartbroken.

"I don't think I had ever been heartbroken in that way before - had so many hopes and dreams on something. This was the first time and it was tough," femalefirst.co.uk quoted her as saying in a TV interview.

"When you go through that kind of heartbreak in front of everybody you are not quite the same person you were before."

"I always wanted that fairytale. It just didn't work out. But I kept trying - you can't blame a girl for trying," she added.

Lopez eventually found happiness with singer-actor Marc Anthony and celebrated her six year wedding anniversary last month. Now, she feels her life together with two-year-old twins Emme and Max is more complete than any relationship she's ever known.