The Last Puff

  •   Fri, Jul 26 2013
  •   By Brian Fernandes

July 26, 2013


The Last Puff

A new beginning is what I need

My lungs are about to bleed?

I hope that it will soonest start –

delay is but a malignant seed.

 

My mind’s all made up,

Coz’ I fear the end,

I’ll do it soon

I’ll not extend.

 

Is it now, or later today?

Will I, or won’t I ?

It’s a decision,

that’s colored grey.

While the end seems far

the beginning’s near

Can I stay the distance?

Is my interim fear.

I’ve done it before

I’ve had good starts,

but then, as always,

there’s been nothing more.

 

I watch with glee,

the wispy wavy vaporous gray

that lingers in the air.

and flick the staining residue

that adorns my gleaming shoe.

For the last time, or so I think,

I tauten my lips around the end;

And enjoy,

the tangy taste, the sharp intake

of a deep breath and C O two.

 

 I feel the rush, as I round the bend,

and I rest assured,

That for the moment

 I’m on the mend.

But what if, my painful end,

My greatest fear

is coming near?

A new beginning

is what I need, before

I start to bleed.

 

But, again I’m sure,

that once I cease,

I’ll have to seek,

perhaps to find,

the profound answer

to the naughty question

of what will I do

with my nicotine obsessed mind?

Certainly,

I’d pop the sweets,

with regularity, and risk

obesity and diabetes.

There’ll always be jeers,

and maybe, just maybe

a few more beers

 

A new beginning? I'd like that.

Oh yes! I’m sure I will;

with a committed heart,

I’ll get a good start,

but as the end nears

I’ll wonder again,

If I’ll abandon myself,

to the comfort

of my  fears.

 

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Comment on this article

  • sebastin, mangalore

    Sun, Jul 28 2013

    Nicely worded. Good one

  • Alphonse Kurian, Kottayam/Bangalore

    Sun, Jul 28 2013

    Is the mind of the poet still debating on the course of action to be taken?

  • Manohar Dsouza, Mangalore/Bahrain

    Sat, Jul 27 2013

    Nice piece of poetry, good work Brian.

  • U V KINI, HYD from M'lore

    Fri, Jul 26 2013

    I love to huff n puff & huff n puff,
    'till my lungs have had enough
    Albiet 'tis only in the gym
    to make my body tough enough.


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