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Bengaluru, Oct 24: Actor Ashwini S N, who recently shot to renewed fame through Bigg Boss Kannada Season 12, has broken her silence on two deeply personal subjects — the online trolling she faced over her cosmetic lip fillers and the emotional scars left by her difficult childhood with an alcoholic mother.

The television star, evicted in the third week of the reality show, has been the focus of social media debate ever since she appeared on screen with a visibly altered look. What began as curiosity about her appearance soon turned into harsh trolling, forcing the Muddulakshmi actress to respond.

“I was heavily trolled for my lips,” Ashwini said in an interview after her eviction. “To be honest, everyone feels the need to make some changes at certain points. In our industry, we constantly need to improve ourselves. If we don’t, opportunities can become limited because competition is so fierce.”

Confirming that she had undergone lip fillers before entering the Bigg Boss house, she said the move was purely for a makeover. “Yes, I did get lip fillers. It’s a cosmetic process — not surgery and not permanent. I just wanted a bit of a changeover before going in. People had always seen me in one typical look, and I thought if I went in looking the same, they’d say I wasn’t doing anything new.”

But the experience, she admitted, was tougher than expected. “I was told it would look normal in about ten days, but it did affect my appearance. I was worried, thinking, ‘Oh no, this happened right before I go inside!’ But I decided to face it. Inside the house, everyone asked about it, and I spoke openly. It’s not permanent — if I don’t like it, I can reverse it. I know my facial features changed, but personality is what truly matters,” she said.

Ashwini added that she, too, wasn’t entirely pleased with the outcome. “It’s okay if people didn’t like it — I didn’t like it much myself either. It didn’t turn out the way I expected. Most people took it casually, but some went too deep and started trolling harshly. When I came out and heard such comments, I wondered — did all the work I’ve done over the years go unseen? If a small change matters so much, why are people so obsessed?”

While trolls picked apart her looks, few knew the pain Ashwini had carried for years. The actress has now revealed that her strength and independence were born from a turbulent childhood.

“Being independent was my own decision,” she said. “I had to move away from certain experiences and rebuild my life in a better way. Everything that has happened in my life has been my own choice. If I tell my story, it’s only one side of it — you’d have to hear both sides to know the full reality.”

For the first time, Ashwini spoke openly about her family struggles. “My mother had a drinking problem,” she said quietly. “If it had been my father, it would’ve been different. But when it’s your mother, imagine how deeply that can affect you. I’m not saying this to seek sympathy — that’s easy to get. I just didn’t want to live that kind of life anymore. I wanted to build a dignified life of my own.”

She said many women related to her story because they, too, had faced similar emotional battles. “It’s easy to talk about how much I’ve suffered and how far I’ve fallen. But many women connect with that pain. What matters is how you get back up.”

From serial stardom to self-discovery

Before her Bigg Boss stint, Ashwini had made a mark in Kannada television through shows such as Girija Kalyana, Kulavadhu, and Muddulakshmi. Her entry into the reality show brought her both newfound fame and fresh criticism — but she says she has no regrets.

“I’ve learnt to face things head-on,” she said. “People can say what they want — I know who I am. Yes, I’ve made mistakes, I’ve made changes, and I’ve lived through pain. But every experience has made me stronger.”

Now, after her exit from the Bigg Boss house, Ashwini says she is ready for a new phase. “I’m grateful for all of it — the love, the trolling, the lessons. It’s made me tougher. I’ll soon be back on screen with something better,” she said with quiet confidence.

“Change isn’t shameful — it’s growth”

From surviving a painful childhood to facing brutal online scrutiny, Ashwini S N has turned her vulnerabilities into strength. Her story, she says, isn’t about self-pity but about resilience.

“I’ve faced trolls, pain, and change — and I’m still standing,” she said firmly. “At the end of the day, change isn’t shameful. It’s a sign that you’re growing.”